Hello. It's been a while. Let me explain. MY laptop has been on the fritz lately. It will literally stay on for about 7 minutes and then it shuts off. It's really great for when I want to just go to bed, it sort of forces me to, but it's not so great when I want to update things, like my blog, for instance. Doesn't help. So, I am writing today to apologize and hope that some of you still check on here once in a while to see if I'm still posting.... which hopefully I will be better at! :) Anyhow, Logan and I are doing extremely well. This year has been such a blessed, wonderful year! Our lives have taken so many crazy exciting twists and turns and we are both better, stronger women for it. Logan has been an amazing blessing to me, as my life as I once thought it would be was taken away from me. She was put on this earth for me! I told her today that I do not know where I would be without her. I have learned so many things about myself and about life and about the Gospel, all from going through my divorce earlier this year. It's so funny, because the divorce weighs extremely heavily on my mind all the time, sometimes I feel like I'm going to go crazy trying to sort it all out! But it would be a good crazy because I am a better person for having gone through it. If I bore you, always talking about my divorce, I'm sorry, I feel like I need to get it all out before the new year.... then on to bigger, greater things! :) It may seem silly, but my divorce was a blessing to me. I didn't know what I was worth, or even what I deserved before. I didn't feel like I could be alone, and I felt like I needed to settle. NOW, I have the opportunity to make my life my very own, with no one telling me my dreams cost too much or that I can't have the kind of life I want, which isn't fancy, mind you, because it doesn't involve sitting at home doing nothing. BLAH!! I am so not a sit at home doing nothing type of gal!! Good grief. The Lord gives us trials to test us. I felt like I had failed this one. Some days, I still do. But most days, I listen to Him telling me that I am showing my daughter a good example and becoming more than I would have been had I stayed. I don't mean any of this to reflect poorly on her Father, he's a fine dad. We just have very different dreams and life paths. Logan had to be here. That's all I will say... :) Processing this divorce and the lessons I am supposed to learn from it has been a daily task for me. Asking Heavenly Father what on Earth He was thinking letting me choose that as one of my life choices. Whaaaa??! Free agency..... hmmmm..... :) I'm a happy person! I'm a happy gal and I have an extremely beautiful, happy little girl who means everything in the world to me and makes me a kinder, gentler person every single day. I count my blessings every day and I get stuck on her and end up drifting off to sleep. Cheesy, I know. But it's true. I'm crazy about her. There isn't any amount of money or any material thing in this world that I wouldn't give up to make sure she is happy. Ah!! Anyway. Enough rambling, I'm sorry! Life is so great! I need addresses for Christmas cards! If you would prefer an email card, I can do that, just send me your email addresses! I love all of you who check up on us, even though it's been forever! Thanks for caring and cheering us on!! Love to you all!!
Jenn and Logan

Opera, Anyone??
Don't you just want to pinch her?!! She kills me!

Again, another very typical Logan face. LOVE that girl. The other day, as I was putting her to bed, we were having a particularly tender Mommy/Logan moment. She had her head down on my chest and we were talking about the day and all the things we had done. I've had a lot more time since I've been off school the past week, which I have LOVED. She lifted her head up and looked at my eyes, in her dim room, and said, "Mommy, you're my bess send." Those of you out there who speak Baby language know that that translates very clearly to, Mommy, you're my best friend. I couldn't ask for anyone more precious in my life than this little girl. She makes every moment crazy, but undeniable blessed. She is the most fun you could pack into a two year old little body. I am determined to give her the best life I possibly can and give her every possibility she can ever hope for. She deserves it. That's why she's mine. She motivates me. Pushes me every day to be more than I already am. She has a strong spirit that will never be broken. She got that from me. Logan is not defeatable, is that a word? Probably not, but you get the picture. Life will be her platform. Logan will do huge things in her life. She is amazing. And beautiful, which, oddly enough, she also got from me... :) I am so proud to be her mother and to share every day with her and teach her about life and show her that every moment is a learning moment. I love her. I am glad she is mine. Forever.
Mommy

She makes me happy. Nuf said.

Okay, this is a very typical Logan face. She wanders around singing to herself and picking up rocks and stick. This is such a fun age! I want her to freeze right now and not grow anymore!
She is the funnest girl ever! This is her fake smile pose. Fake smile. :)

This is her very frequent, I'm sick of you telling me to SMILE! Smile. Precious.

Hello, I decided that that post had been on there long enough. I feel really bad even putting that on there because I'm usually not one to do stuff like that. I just had to get it out. Now I'm done. :) I appreciate everyone's sweet comments! I love you all so much. My life has been so richly blessed by the people in it, that I don't feel like I have any right to complain. I love every one of you and am so grateful for everything you have done and all the support, near and far, that I have felt.
Jenn

So, maybe if I make a post, I will feel like people are watching out for me and I will do better... I am on a weight loss journey. Seriously, I gained so much "sad marriage weight" that I can't see straight. Now that I am a happier person, I'm wanting to get it all off, but it's HARD! It was never this hard before! I've lost 20lbs so far, but I want to lose at least 20 more. I'm hoping to do so by the end of summer. So here goes! Wish me luck and keep me on my toes!
Jenn

Hello everyone! Sorry it has been so long since I last updated. We finally have INTERNET at my parent's house! Woot woot! I have quite a bit to update. Well, I don't know if it's quite a bit, but it has at least been a while. First off, I am officially divorced. It was final the end of February and was a great relief to have that battle over. Now on to new and crazier battles, right? Yep. But our life is great! Logan is growing so stinking fast I can't even stand it! She talks like she's 14 and is diva of all the world. She makes me laugh NON stop! The things she comes up with are so creative and crazy that I can't help but die laughing, and sometimes even crying. Like today, I was getting ready to walk out the door to go to school and she hung on my legs and cried, "No, Mommy, no leave me, palease.....!!!" It was so stinking tender! That was a cry moment. I can't help myself, I LOVE LOVE LOVE her! The Lord has blessed me with so much for which I am so grateful. My family has been a huge rock of support and encouragement. I don't know where I would be without the Gospel or my family. My entire family. Even though I haven't seen a lot of my extended family through this process, I have felt their prayers and support. It's been amazing. With all the bumps in the road the last 3 years, my life has remained oddly stable. I have always had a place to go when I needed it. I have always had people who love Logan and are willing to help in ANY way needed. We have never not had a place to be or go for support. People don't mind if I scream or have been a little crazy at times. They seem to understand. Even when I, myself, don't understand what is going on. I have learned so much about life and Heavenly Father these past few months. He loves all of us. We are all His children and there isn't one thing He won't help us with. He has carried my feet through so much mud and helped me so I haven't had to feel so much of the pain associated with a lot of muddy stuff that has been thrown my way. The Lord truly does not give us anything we are not able to handle. Well, sometimes He has to figure out what we can handle first... :) This certainly has been something I never expected to have to handle. I often asked myself if it was something I was up to or if it really was going to kill me. I never knew from day to day what to expect. The Atonement is real and it is for everybody. That has been a hard lesson for me to accept. The Atonement has softened my heart in ways I didn't realize it had been hardened. It's amazing the affect that it can have on people if we will apply it to our lives. The days that I have the hardest times and want to curl up in a ball and cry myself to sleep are the days I oddly find myself focusing more on the Atonement and what exactly it means to MY life. How I need to repent of things that I have done and make MY life more holy and worthy of the blessings He sends me everyday. He unconditionally blesses us. No matter what. I love the Gospel and the influence it has on my life and the life of my daughter. Anyway, I had better get to bed. More updates and hopefully pictures soon!!! Night!

Hi everyone!! I'm so sorry it has taken me so long to update and I'm sorry there are no pictures this time. I just figured I would let you all know how things are going lately! My divorce was final on the 26th of February so I started out March as a new lady! It was a great feeling to have it finally over with and not have the option to go back and forth anymore. It has been a hard adjustment, I don't like the word "divorced" but it is so much better than "married and miserable." Life has been up and down since being back, there are so many different changes and Logan is so confused. It breaks my heart when she gets stressed and frustrated. Her life has changed so much and she has been uprooted so many different times it just doesn't seem fair for someone so little to have such inconsistancy in her life. But I have all the faith in the world that we will both be just fine as life unfolds and we get settled into our new routine and schedule. She is an amazing little girl and I couldn't ask for a better daughter. She turned TWO on the the 6thor March and is a typical little 2 year old. She's in to everything and talks non stop. I love her so much! Thank you everyone for all your support and love. It has been so wonderful to feel the love and support from important people in our lives. Let us know when you want to get together! We are always looking for playdates and girls time! We love you all and hope everyone is doing really well!!! Pictures to come soon!!!
Jenn and Logan