Hello. It's been a while. Let me explain. MY laptop has been on the fritz lately. It will literally stay on for about 7 minutes and then it shuts off. It's really great for when I want to just go to bed, it sort of forces me to, but it's not so great when I want to update things, like my blog, for instance. Doesn't help. So, I am writing today to apologize and hope that some of you still check on here once in a while to see if I'm still posting.... which hopefully I will be better at! :) Anyhow, Logan and I are doing extremely well. This year has been such a blessed, wonderful year! Our lives have taken so many crazy exciting twists and turns and we are both better, stronger women for it. Logan has been an amazing blessing to me, as my life as I once thought it would be was taken away from me. She was put on this earth for me! I told her today that I do not know where I would be without her. I have learned so many things about myself and about life and about the Gospel, all from going through my divorce earlier this year. It's so funny, because the divorce weighs extremely heavily on my mind all the time, sometimes I feel like I'm going to go crazy trying to sort it all out! But it would be a good crazy because I am a better person for having gone through it. If I bore you, always talking about my divorce, I'm sorry, I feel like I need to get it all out before the new year.... then on to bigger, greater things! :) It may seem silly, but my divorce was a blessing to me. I didn't know what I was worth, or even what I deserved before. I didn't feel like I could be alone, and I felt like I needed to settle. NOW, I have the opportunity to make my life my very own, with no one telling me my dreams cost too much or that I can't have the kind of life I want, which isn't fancy, mind you, because it doesn't involve sitting at home doing nothing. BLAH!! I am so not a sit at home doing nothing type of gal!! Good grief. The Lord gives us trials to test us. I felt like I had failed this one. Some days, I still do. But most days, I listen to Him telling me that I am showing my daughter a good example and becoming more than I would have been had I stayed. I don't mean any of this to reflect poorly on her Father, he's a fine dad. We just have very different dreams and life paths. Logan had to be here. That's all I will say... :) Processing this divorce and the lessons I am supposed to learn from it has been a daily task for me. Asking Heavenly Father what on Earth He was thinking letting me choose that as one of my life choices. Whaaaa??! Free agency..... hmmmm..... :) I'm a happy person! I'm a happy gal and I have an extremely beautiful, happy little girl who means everything in the world to me and makes me a kinder, gentler person every single day. I count my blessings every day and I get stuck on her and end up drifting off to sleep. Cheesy, I know. But it's true. I'm crazy about her. There isn't any amount of money or any material thing in this world that I wouldn't give up to make sure she is happy. Ah!! Anyway. Enough rambling, I'm sorry! Life is so great! I need addresses for Christmas cards! If you would prefer an email card, I can do that, just send me your email addresses! I love all of you who check up on us, even though it's been forever! Thanks for caring and cheering us on!! Love to you all!!
Jenn and Logan